Tuesday, March 30, 2010

new feelings sia! @ 10:14 PM

wa...recently i have issues with time...ya..time...the thing tat is define as.....
' a system or method of measuring or reckoning the passage of time'
why? well i dunno....its just seem tat i'm attracted to living in the past then facing the present...ya noe...ppl often think of the past right...and they continue to be living at the present cos they think of it because its part of their memories...
as for mi~ its kinda complicated to explain...well its my system....and now tat i'm jobless...and always stays at home...the thing is being more and more like the past...and ppl are asking...u not sian meh? everyday stay at home...den when i reply...ok la...its the same as last time ma...den they will like raise their voice...YA LA!! BUT LAST TIME IS NO CHOICE MA!...i dunno why she(mum)have to raise her voice...anyway...ok la....my past is not realli pleasant...ok.now tat i think of it...NONE OF MY LIFE IS ACTUALLY PLEASANT...mayb onli partial of it...haiz...den since like tat why would i still wan to live in the past? i think cos the unhappy things just gets worse and worse tat i cannot realli stand it already...no one ever thinks of mi when things happen...mayb they think i'll survive somehow...well i did...i survived...mayb cos my past life is a roach? then again...do roaches do good stuff and reincarnate into a human? wait...no i must have done something wrong so i reincarnate to be a human with shitty life...and the torture of emotions...cos i dun think roaches have emotions...so...i hate my life...dun wan to pull my family and friends into the water...so i think i ruin their lives...i'm sorry tat i existed...
i'm sorry of all the pain and sorrows i bought to u...ahh~ i'm so looking forward to the day i finally die...leaving all MY pain and sorrows tat i've kept in my heart for the years of my existence...wow! i'll feel damn happy when tat day comes...!

bye!

p/s: apparently i wun do anything stupid la... i'll wait for the day when i rightfully have to say goodbye to this world...so until then...i'll try very hard to make myself insane so i dun have to worry about anything anymore...lol...seriously...

Friday, March 26, 2010

101th...today @ 6:53 AM

wow...its my 101th post sia...i like so long den blog once...den got 100 post neh...so..surprising...lol...today neh...dun feel like onlining msn...cos like no one online leh...den den den...dun wan unwanted ppl to talk to mi...sick...which sucks...and explains why i'm blogging now...cos i'm sick...>.<...anyway...went to nchs dunno how many years de anni...and watched the parade....its nice...well...first time as a spectator...cos i participated in EVERY single parade lo....even though i'm like...not realli entu at the later part of my sec school life...well i'm once a npcc cadet...i still remember tat the first parade is sec one (duh~)...as in i volunteered to be in the supporting con...den its like...so exciting la...during every rehersal..and the finally the actual tat time is like...wa...we've done it...ok la...not so much...lol...mostly is...yes!!!! i no need jurgle tuition and rehersal anymore!!! and no need give excuses of not going tuition le...and YES! i pon tuition often during the lower sec time....wat? i dun like tuition ma...dun tell mi u like lo...anyway...den sec 2 and 3...same thing la...i dunno is they dun like mi or wat...they like to put rehersal time at tues and thurs...i realli wonder leh...nchs is dun like mi izzit? everytime got this kind of things hor...i suffer de leh...along with my mum's wallet...cos no extra tuition ma...den fee oso just keep paying...den den den..hmm...sec 4 tat time is the worse de...i'm like so stress out becos of the rehersal thingy (AGAIN!)...cos i'm not allowed to leave early....the person keep telling mi tat how important it is....den call mi to change time slot for tuition...den i dun dare tell my tuition teacher somemore...cos N lvl ma...den must either give excuses or call my dad to tell him...which made him kinda mad...my dad la..not my tuition teacher...den my grades is like...erm...how to say??? like air plane crash like tat...lol...ok la...my grades not very good oso...so is...helicopter crash? cos cannot travel as high as a plane ma...lol...den....wa...feel like killing myself sia...at that point of time...den finish le..ju ok le lo..cos i can forget things easily de ma...if u dunno...now u noe...certain things la...den....sec 5... not so much ba...dunno why oso...did i like particiate in the anni????? i dun think have lo...got ma???? dunno la...*take out phone...msg friend ask...*
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ok!! confirm le!!! dun have...so the thing i remember is in sec 4 de...anyway....after the parade...we all sit on the wooden table...den like very emo la...no one care oso....so i just go home lo...dun think anyone notices tat i'm gone oso...anyway...so i've decided to walk home tat day...which is like obvious tat i'm not feeling very ok...cos the uniform thingy is like fucking heavy...den dun feel like reaching home so soon...so i purposely walk damn slowly...so the journey home usually took mi 20mins...and ya...i walk slow oso...den tat time i reached home 45mins...25mins more sia...but like not enough leh...next time if emo cannot walk home from school le...its like at clementi la!!! i walk 1 month still haven reach home ar...i think...lol...ok la...tats all for the friday parade...

bye~

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

haha @ 6:11 AM

i just told siti on monday i will update my blog about the cny by wed...which is like today...and...not in a mood to post long ass post leh...so lets like leave it to....i dunno...but i promise tat i will update de la....cos alot of pictures...den unlike facebook...blogger have to upload pictures one-by-one and its like WTF?! and i'm kinda like...occupied by kingdom hearts 2...yaya i noe i noe...its a kinda old game...cos kingdom heart in psp and ds already come out le...and got kingdom hearts 3 oso...which i dun have a clue whether it came out liao ant...and i completed it once already...de mo~~ its fun la...and nothing to do ma...den not realli into internet le...nothing to do oso...so play game lo...never play later my ps2 spoil how? right? ok la...excuses i noe... anyway...wat i just promised...tag at mt tag box to let me noe tat there is actually someone who cares wat shit i did during cny...if not i will just continue being lazy like i did for 17 going 18 years of my life...

ANYWAY~ i got my laptop le...the cheapest of course....1.1k and its like...pink? even the keyboard is pink lo...den not overly 'pinkish' just right....and its like...easy to use? cos the manual is like so...suckish...and its eco friendly! cos it have an eco button which allows the voice to be mute...lighting to be darken...and disable dunno watever button de...which is like...use lesser energy...den can tahan longer...lesser charging time...good for battery oso...save electricity oso...den finally...its healthy for the earth...cos lesser energy is use ma...den lesser global warming...and green house effects...and i dunno wat i'm saying is correct ant...anyway...its good ju can le...

mum bd coming le~~ on aprils fools day..i'm like so broke...cannot do anything for her oso...no school at the mean time...dunno wats poly like...cos no one can like fen xiang their xin de with mi...den cannot promise her anything like...have good grades and stuff...HAIZ~

den....the keyboard at the laptop is like so shallow...actually every laptop oso like tat la...but like so weird leh...or izzit mi? AH~~YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA! fuck lo...i cannot go the is foregin language thingy...cos the adminstration for jap is like closed on 16th march...and moreover...i dunno how to pay the damn thing...haiz...where can i like learn jap ar? cheap sources of course...its like a pain to see/hear jap when playing games or watching shows sia...cos i dunno wat they are like talking about... den the subtitles abit cannot trust sia...>.< suddenly feel like eating shepherd pie...but lazy to cook...and its like so late le...tml ba...BA~
hmm...anymore things???

oh ya~ i wan to change my nail design...>.< den recently very lazy to think of new design for blogshop sia...a very unsuccessful blogshop...anyway....

anyone wan ready-to-wear nails? like those you can buy le...tick le den ok de those kind...but my one is like...u can see my designs or create yourself so its like...unique de...one and only...only you have de those kind...reusable...so its like eco friendly oso...den er....go see for yourself ba...

www.sui-generisnails.blogspot.com

p/s: de mo means but

Thursday, March 11, 2010

sorry? @ 10:39 PM

i noe its kinda long since my 'prepost' and cny is over like f-ing long liao...but i'm kinds busy about my blogshop...wanna advertise and blogskin etc...so ya...forgive me ya? i getting my laptop later~ at np...my future (another 1 month) poly! i feel so sad sia...cos everyone is like at rp...>.< sian...HAIZ! different holiday somemore...'long distance relationship' sia...lol....ok la...like tat first...need shower...den make up...before 3.30pm....LAPTOP!! HERE I COME!

p/s: everytime i thought about buying a laptop i will imagine how excited i am...but the in reality tat i'm getting later or when i'm choosing...not so much...